sobs*

the past few nights have been constantly filled with terrifying nightmares of a lvls!!! and somehow they all feel so freaking real. can i just curl up and die? aaah.

i keep dreaming about those stupid anticipated results. and the worse thing is that my results were dead shit. like seriously shit. and they're in o lvl format. like today, i dreamt that i had f9 for gp and c6 for all my other subjects except malay. omg omg. and like the previous dream i had, i had 34/100 for gp!!! DOTS. can't i dream that i made it to nus or monash? hoho.

and georgia had a premonition again. and she doesn't sound too happy about it. sighh. one word to describe myself now: scared. i'm just plain freaking scared. i'm shaking like a pathetic leaf hanging precariously on a bloody tree branch waiting to fly or drop down to the ground. i don't wanna end up not able to go nowhere. please please please at least allow me to go to a decent uni overseas even if i can't get to nus.